Leftie's Blog

It’s been a while since I’ve written one of these, hasn’t it?

I’ve been kind of thinking today about what the path forward looks like for me, and after reading this great article from peer ivy sly on scope creep and some other stuff today, I feel like getting some stuff off my mind. Some Summer brain cleaning, if you will.

At the beginning of May this year, I set out a lot of goals for myself to do over the Summer. I wanted to finish my merch line in collaboration with Hustlin’ Clothes, I wanted to design and create one more Your Only Move Is HUSTLE mod, and I wanted to run my first real game project, Anthrodia: Tactics, through its entire pre-production process.

And you know what? We’re almost entering July, and I just called off the poster from the merch line because I just don’t have the drive or ideas for it. I haven’t even started that Yomi mod, and my design doc for Tactics has stagnated. I’ve just been getting out of my work shifts and online classes and playing games. I had a bit of a crisis over the past few days because my drive for things — just things in general — hit a critical low, and after spending yesterday recharging alone, that article on scope creep kind of came to me at a perfect time.

I think I totally scope-creeped my Summer.

Work is a lot. I’m only working part-time hours, but anyone who has worked any job knows it’s a lot to come home from a day of work and exert even more of your limited energy doing something creative. Even if you actively want to do it, the energy just isn’t there. And after the Summer, I’m going full-time with this job with the intent to save up and move. I wanted to make a game during that? Collaborating with others on a real video game after a week of 8-hour shifts, every week?

Yeah, I think it’s about time I slowed down. The less I pressure myself to do all the things I want to do in only a few months time, the happier I’ll be to do it all and the more energy I’ll have to do it. None of this is going anywhere; I’m doing this all on my own time, after all.

So yeah, if you’re reading this, I’m not dead, I’m not abandoning any of my projects, I’m just going to slow down and do it on my own time rather than holding myself to an arbitrary due date. I wouldn’t really say I’m on hiatus, either. I’m just kind of, I dunno… in stasis or something. You’ll hear from me when I have things to share 🙂

My pins finally showed up in the mail today! I also got a cheapo 2-in-1 tablet pc I can carry around with me to do reading and writing with, just so I’m not perpetually landlocked to my desk. ‘Tis nice to be able to move around freely and be productive without having to use… (shudders) Google Docs on mobile.

I’ve also got my stickers showing up sometime either tomorrow or Monday, exciting! I have to figure out which laptop I’m even going to want to put them on now, LOL

But yeah, in case you missed it, I’ve started dropping some merch in collaboration with Hustlin’ Clothes for my modded characters. I’ve got a little more coming through the pipe but for now there are some stickers and these pins :3 No pressure to buy anything of course, the stickers in particular were mostly just for me, but they’re available if you’re interested.

That’s all I had to say, really. Going to find something to occupy myself with for the rest of the night now. Bye!

First thing I did this morning was check on my website, haha. It’s a very liberating experience as a software developer — especially one who has most of my experience with web dev — to have my own playground to do whatever I want and showcase it freely.

Hell, I am finally able to host webismanycolors after, like, almost 2 years. No free option is willing to host an .mp3 on a static site, not even GitHub Pages! Sure, I could have paid NeoCities, but that’s a lot of regular upkeep for a site I barely used at the best of times. As much fun as it is to make a site from scratch, having all the tools at your disposal and using them is how you make a GOOD website. I’m still attached to my old portfolio, but it’s extremely scuffed. Hard to update, clunky, and inefficient. I suggest checking it out if you’re interested, and it certainly wins over this new site in the charm department, but… man, this is just so much nicer. The modern workflow is truly a blessing, haha.

I’m just sat here wondering what I should do with this site now; I’ve got a new portfolio that’s easier to update, a blog I can freely and easily post to, and an art gallery for the stuff I’m proud of, but I’ve got 25 whole gigs of storage. Maybe I could transfer my lore wiki to this domain? Then I wouldn’t have to worry about deactivations. But on the other hand, this website as it is, seems to be having the occasional 502 Bad Gateway error and I have not the slightest clue as to why, so that might be a priority to iron out before I add much more. Need to do some deeper digging for that, because I can’t find anything with surface level research.

Anyway, what to do today… Probably going to make myself finish those stickers for the Yomi merch store, I’ve been almost done the lineart for weeks now, and I just need to make myself do it, I think.

Byebye! And welcome if you came from the Discord bot! You should check the rest of the website out :3

It took all damn day and the husband to show me the landing page giga broke on Chrome, but it’s done.

My website is done.

My own personal website.

Today is a good day.

This is my first post of (hopefully) many! I’m not really sure what I’ll end up putting here; probably dev logs, life updates, that kind of stuff. Social Media is so last year. :3